Church at Home

I am curling my hair in the bedroom when I hear Kelly open her door and walk downstairs. I glance at my watch – 8:30 a.m., the time we’ve set for our first roommate breakfast. I turn off the curling iron, and survey the floor of my bedroom, uncharacteristically messy these days. I really should clean this up now, I think. It’d be nice if I could just have this hour before church to myself.

But I’m not one to break appointments. Especially not this one. Since Kelly moved in three weeks ago, I’ve only seen her two or three times. She works late at her graphic design job in DC. Amy and I, both teachers with early schedules, are usually in bed before she returns. The three of us have yet to sit down and figure out house rules and routines, and until we do, I know I won’t really feel settled. I sigh, noting the compression in my sinuses and the cramps tightening my stomach. Just do it, I tell myself.

I join Kelly in the kitchen where she’s in the middle of rummaging through her cupboard, pulling out stacks of cans: Campbell’s cream of mushroom soup, generic black beans, Del Monte corn. “I’m looking for my pancake mix,” she explains.

I smile, moving into the dining room to set the table: three pink placemats, three cream plates with scalloped edges, three forks, three knives. By the time I return to the kitchen, Amy’s made her way downstairs too, still in the sweatshirt and boxer shorts she must have worn to bed last night. She’s cutting overripe peaches into bite-size pieces, sorting them into two neat piles on the cutting board: edible and brown. Kelly’s found the pancake mix and is stirring in an egg.

“Does anyone have milk?” she asks.

“I’ve got skim,” Amy returns.

“I’ve got one percent,” I add before turning to measure coffee beans into the grinder.

Amy opens the fridge door and pours the milk into the one cup measuring cup. “How are you Abby?” she asks, handing the milk to Kelly.

“Okay,” I say, trying to keep track of the number of tablespoons I’ve measured. “I think I’m coming down with a bit of a cold though.”

“Oh no,” Kelly exclaims, looking up from her mixing bowl, her eyes widening into genuine alarm. Though we go to the same church, I barely know Kelly, so I’m struck by her sympathy and sincerity. “Do you need medicine?” she asks.

“Actually, that’d be great.” She runs upstairs to get some while Amy and I chat about our Saturday night activities: movie for me, catching up on e-mail for Amy. When Kelly returns, I thank her and pop the cold pills into my mouth, their bitter sweetness dissolving and spreading across my tongue in the brief seconds before I wash them down with water.

“So what do you think we should do about chores this year?” Amy asks. She’s finished slicing peaches now and is sorting through the blueberries I left on the counter last night, throwing away the moldy ones and dumping the others into Kelly’s pancake batter.

“What did you do last year?” Kelly asks. Amy takes a few moments to explain the system the two of us and our old roommate Chrystal had used, and I listen, hand poised on the button that will start the coffee grinder. Kelly likes our chore chart, so we all agree to keep it.

With our decision comes a lull in the conversation, so I push the button, the whirr of the grinder forcing each of us into our own worlds for a moment. When it’s finished though, we return to each other, chatting about plans for a new DVD player while we measure, stir, brew and sort. We’ve never cooked together before, but we’ve fallen into it easily, a natural rhythm emerging in our movements, in our words. I breathe deeply, taking in not only the rich aroma of coffee and the crisp scent of pancakes in oil, but also the moment itself and its echoes of goodness, rightness, home.

Amy and Kelly are both flipping pancakes now, Kelly in a round skillet, Amy in a wok. Neither pan’s right for the job, but they don’t seem to mind. I grab the margarine and pancake syrup and put them on the table, then add the finishing touch: a candle in the center. I run upstairs to get a match and return to light it, finishing at the same time as the pancakes.

We all sit down together at the table. “Wow, we work well together,” Kelly says, surveying the results of our efforts: coffee steaming in mugs, peach and blueberry pancakes, some perfect crisp rounds, others lumpy piles. I offer to pray. “Thanks God,” I say, “for letting us all work together this morning to make breakfast. Thanks for fun memories. I pray that there’d be many more in the coming months. And I pray too that in the fun, there’d also be lots of growing together, lots of helping each other seek You more. Amen.”

I look up and smile at my roommates, truly thankful for this moment and for the fact that I’m not spending this hour before church alone, thankful too that church is beginning to work its way into my home.

Post Trip Reflections

After a hiatus of several weeks to recover from my adventures and readjust (somewhat painfully) to life in DC, I'm ready to return to the blogosphere. It's sad, but I really am kind of addicted now. Writing for an audience - at least an imagined one - makes it seem so much more real. And since I'll be doing lots of writing for my grad classes this semester, I thought I'd post some of it here....so without further ado, some reflections on Scotland, the Heathrow craziness, and the way it's impacted me.

On Beauty: Scotland and Pennsylvania

*Scotland: Thursday, August 10, 2006

We are driving toward Loch Ness on a Haggis tour bus when I first hear whispers of the foiled attack at Heathrow. The news comes in fragments as we weave our way through the lush green of the Highlands, tidbits gathered by tour members with cell phones, intermittent updates on the radio: major terrorist plot involving flights from London to America, extra security, evacuation, restrictions limiting carry-on luggage.

Our tour guide, Fergus, tries to keep things as “wild and sexy” as his company’s advertising promises, blasting the Automatic’s “Monster” over the loudspeakers as we near Fort Augustus, amusing himself and at least some of his audience with off-color jokes for the first stretch of our long drive back to Edinburgh. It makes me think of the teachers I work with who had to keep going on 9-11, pretending that everything was normal, sneaking peeks at CNN online, turning on the news during their free periods. I wonder if Fergus is secretly as anxious as I am to finish the tour and find a television, to get the full story, to figure out what all of this means for me, for the world.

And yet, part of me likes that in the isolated bubble that is this tour bus, it all feels far away. From my back row seat, I can hear little above the hum of the air conditioner, and I lay my head back on the seat, trying to take in the quiet of the countryside: sheep scattered across fields of gold, sprinkled with purple heather and bright pink bursts of flowering thistle, the green vegetation on the glacial bluffs darkening to brown in the distance.

It is beautiful, all of it, stunning really, and yet I find myself feeling not the ache of beauty, the one I feel when I can simply sit and take it all in, but rather the ache for home. I long for those I know would love to be here with me, for places I can visit without feeling the weight of capturing them in pictures and words, for beauty I can call mine, its familiarity adding to its richness.
Here, now, even my words are tentative, grasping for cohesiveness as we fly through Scotland at one hundred kilometers per hour. One minute, the patterns of vegetation on the hillside are a swirled mass of browns and greens, like the earth as viewed from outer space. The next, they become a mini-golf course, lighter green blobs outlined in darker green.

And suddenly, being on another continent matters in ways it hasn’t for the past five weeks. I’m no further away than I have been, but I feel further knowing that Heathrow might be shut down, that my plane ticket may do me no good, that the world is full of people who don’t like Americans. I wonder if my flight was one of those to be targeted, try to imagine what it would feel like, thousands of miles in the air, to know you were going to die.

Looking out the window on my left, I catch a glimpse of a patch of sunlight on the gently sloped hillside. A cloud advances upon it, gradually sweeping up tree after tree into its shadow, like a curtain closing.

*Pennsylvania: Sunday, September 3, 2006

I am sitting in the back seat of my parents’ cranberry red Ford Taurus, sipping a cup of McDonald’s coffee. I hadn’t planned to get up before six over the long weekend. In fact, I hadn’t planned to set my alarm at all, but then again, none of us had expected my youngest brother to call yesterday and say that he’d lost one-third of his vision in his left eye. Gone. Without explanation.

It’s a little after seven now, and we’ve been on the road for an hour or so, heading from Lancaster, where I’ve been visiting my parents for the weekend, to State College, where my brother is supposed to be beginning his senior year of college in two days. He has a doctor’s appointment at 9, and we expect that he might have to go into surgery immediately afterwards. My mom, a nurse, suspects a retinal detachment, but even if it’s not, we all suspect that it’s serious.

We are driving along the Susquehanna River, winding upward through the Alleghney Mountains. Fog rises off the water, and mist drifts through the lush, green valleys. This is prettier than Scotland, I think, amazed that in the forty or fifty times I must have made this drive in my own college career, I’ve never realized this before. If I were on a tour bus, I think, I’d be commenting on how gorgeous America is, how I just wish I could live in a place like this. Strange that I have. Strange too that this is the time I’m finally paying attention.

But maybe beauty is like that. Maybe it hits you most when you least expect it, when you can least stop to enjoy it. Maybe it’s most striking when we’re most aware of our own mortality, most humbled by our own powerlessness. Maybe beauty’s not meant to be grasped, but to call us to something deeper.

The Adventure Continues

We're currently paying exorbitant rates for internet, so I'll keep this brief but here's the update. We made our flight to Heathrow from Edinburgh, only to find our United flight one of the third that were cancelled out of Heathrow today. It was absolute craziness at the airport; I've never seen anything like it. We couldn't even get inside the airport. So we're at the Marriott near the airport, scheduled to fly to Germany tomorrow morning and then from there to Dulles, hopefully arriving tomorrow evening. Please keep praying that we can get on both flights and arrive home safely as soon as possible! Thanks. I love and miss you all TONS. Never thought I'd be so excited for American soil.

Ready for Home

Well I took notes yesterday with the full intention of writing a really poetic post on my reflections about the Scottish highlands, but right now, I'm too tired to manage. So instead I'm just writing to say we're still here, still having fun, still seeing lots of cool stuff - in spite of all the drama in the airports here.

We spent the last two days on day trips in the Highlands, and they're absolutely beautiful: lush, green, quaint little towns, sheep everywhere, some cool looking hairy coos (cows in Scottish dialect). We visited Loch Ness and a distillery - fun, but I still don't like whiskey. Stacie and I sampled some haggis yesterday, and it was actually quite good. Tomorrow we have one more day in Edinburgh before the adventure of trying to get home begins.

We'd definitely appreciate your prayers for a safe trip home. We need to fly from Edinburgh to Heathrow and then back out again to Dulles, all in one day. From everything we're reading, it's going to be a bit crazy with luggage and all, but we're definitely thankful they foiled the plot. If I don't post again tomorrow, hopefully my next post will be made from good old Fairfax. I can't wait!

Enjoying Edinburgh


Just a quick post to say we made it safe and sound to Edinburgh this afternoon and are LOVING our hostel here. It's in a beautiful, old castle-like building right on a lake with incredible scenery. So far we haven't made it in to downtown Edinburgh because we've been so busy enjoying exploring the hostel (which includes a store, movie theater, pub, and gym) and walking through the scenery around it. Tomorrow, we'll spend the day in the city and then Thursday and Friday we'll be taking day trips out into the countryside.

It's FREEZING here...I bought a wool sweater in Ireland, and even with that and two other layers on and sun still out, I was cold on our after-dinner walk. It's hard to believe that just two weeks ago I was sweltering in Cambridge!

Dublin Diet

Here's the story of my day in food...

8 a.m. - Breakfast at our hostel (giant roll with butter and jam, coffee, juice)
10 a.m. - Machiatto at Nude (ordered because Tourist Info was closed until 10:30 in honor of a Bank Holiday we didn't know existed)
11:30 a.m. - Galaxy Hazelnut candy bar (eaten while enjoying fantastic Irish scenery on the bus on the way to Glendalough)
1 p.m. - Fried chicken sandwich at the "kiosk" in Glendalough Park
4 p.m. - Ice cream cone after hike in the park
8:30 p.m. - Pint of Guinness at the Guinness factory, half of a Nature Valley peanut butter granola bar (the last one from the stash I brought with me)
10:30 p.m. - Hunky Dorys sour cream and cheese chips and Galaxy caramel bar in our hostel bedroom (consumed after we realized all restaurants and grocery stores within blocks were closed)

A day with Becca and Stacie in Dublin and vicinity - PRICELESS!

Of Airports, Hostels, and Dublin

Yesterday was a day full of many adventures. Picture the following scene: me lugging my mega suitcase and laptop bag stuffed with books through the streets of London, the Tube, the Gatwick Express, and eventually the airport - only to discover my bag weighed too much for our flight. Yes, I became THAT person, trying to pull out the heavy stuff and carry it by hand. Lesson learned: suitcase packed with 5 weeks worth of stuff minus black licorice bag, sneakers, toiletries, and blazer equals acceptable for Ryan Air :) I'm now trying to figure out what I can get rid of before our flight to Edinburgh on Tuesday.

Now picture 3 very tired, very American girls arriving in Dublin at about 10:30 p.m., trying to figure out what bus to take, being told by two people that our hostel was in "not the best area." It was a bit nervewracking, but we made it. And it's really not bad at all. We have a room for just the 3 of us, and it's clean and comfortable. And we all feel very safe. For me, it's really fun to actually have the hostel experience - more communal in feel than a hotel setting. In general, the city here feels very young. Apparently, over 50% of Dublin's residents are under 30.

Anyways, today we took a hop-on, hop-off tour of Dublin and we visited the Killmainham Gaol, learning lots about Irish history and also saw the Book of Kells at Trinity College. As you can see, below we also enjoyed a traditional Irish dinner of cider and Dublin Coddle (potatoes, sausage and bacon in a tasty sauce). Yum!

The Last Phase Begins


Tonight is my last night in London. I spent the morning in Notting Hill, wandering through the market and enjoying the quaint neighborhoods. Then I met Stacie and Becca and we enjoyed a full day - British Museum, National Portrait Gallery, Trafalgar Square, and Tower Bridge followed by a dinner of fish, chips, and cider.

Tomorrow, I'll say goodbye to my GMU friends and then spend the day with Stacie and Becca in the city - visiting Westminster Abbey and as many other sites as we can squeeze in. Then in the evening, we fly to Dublin for 3 days, followed by 5 days in Edinburgh. I'm a bit nervous about the flights and the hostels and dragging my luggage around everywhere, but I'm excited too...looking forward to seeing the countryside and especially to Edinburgh, which everyone says is absolutely amazing.

I'm not sure if I'll have e-mail access this coming week, but I'll try to squeeze in a post or two at an internet cafe somewhere. And if not, I'll make sure to update when I return to the US next Sunday. I miss you all and can't wait to see you then - if anyone wants to meet me at Baja Fresh, that's the first stop on my list! :)

Canterbury

Chaucer had prepared me for the streets crowded with modern pilgrims, for the stench of unwashed tourists, for the Starbuck's adjoining the cathedral gate. After all, his tales are known for their mingling of the bawdy and the sacred. I was expecting no better.

I did not know that I would gasp upon my first view of the Nave, awed by the narrow rows of columns stretching hundreds of feet up to the peaked arches, majestic tendons of white stone. I did not know that I would find tears here, that I would be silenced for a full two hours, that I would long to raise my hands and sing.

I did not know that I would kneel at the Chapel of the Saints and Martyrs, knees on the hard wooden bench, eyes transfixed by fragile patterns of colored glass, and find my heart swept upward in prayer for the persecuted church.

Had I known, I would've come as a pilgrim, weary with the journey, rich with expectation of the glory awaiting me. Instead, I leave a pilgrim, aware of how far I still am from home, full of fresh hope for the day my voice will join with those of Augustine and Beckett and thousands more in a song of worship that will fill even these grand spaces, resonating from the depths of the crypt to the distant peak of the bell tower, spilling outward and upward in never-ending praise.

Touring London

London Skyline - as viewed from our double decker bus :)

Me in Trafalgar Square

Well, I've been in London for three days now, and I've been able to see a lot - Hyde Park, Oxford Circus, Trafalgar Square (including a lunchtime concert at St. Martin in the Fields), a double-decker bus tour of all the major sites, a river cruise on the Thames (including a stop at Greenwich), the British Museum (including the Rosetta Stone), and the Tower of London (including the crown jewels). The weather's been beautiful - cool, breezy, and sunny, and the city's been less crowded and chaotic than I'd expected. That being said, I can't claim to love London. I think it comes down to the fact that I'm just not a city person, though it is nice to feel like I can handle one and make my way around in it. And the history everywhere is pretty amazing.

A few favorite moments so far:

1. Hyde Park - We visited Speaker's Corner on Sunday, an area reserved for people to get up on their soapboxes - literally! - and yell and scream about their political and religious beliefs. It was pretty crazy. The guy with the biggest crowd was talking about the Lebanon situation, and the atmosphere was definitely tense.

2. The Coffee Cellar in Greenwich - This place advertises the best coffee in Greenwich, but we should have known better when they accosted me on the street, eagerly asking if we wanted coffee. When we decided we did, we were led downstairs into a musty basement with these crazy, multi-colored chairs and intense incense burning! The guy serving us, who had creamer drops on his mustache, couldn't remember what cakes they had, so he literally brought down these boxes from the freezer and laid them all out in front of us so we could choose. We were laughing to the point of tears.

3. The Tower of London - Amazing to see this place I've heard so much about - and to think of all the history that has happened there. The buildings were beautiful too.

Tomorrow a group of us is taking a day trip to Canterbury, and then on Thursday, we're going to Bath, and then Friday, Stacie and Becca arrive...I'm excited!

In London!

I just wanted to write a quick post and let everyone know that we made it safely to London and are settled into our flats. It worked out so that I could stay with Heidi, Kellie, and Kimberly and Heidi and Kellie's guests in a 3 bedroom flat with living room, kitchen, and 2 bathrooms. It's actually pretty nice and it's in a quiet, residential neighborhood, so we all slept better last night than we ever did in our more noisy location in Cambridge. The other bonus is that there's a wireless network available, which is a WONDERFUL SURPRISE. So keep on e-mailing...I'll be able to respond as long as I'm here (through Saturday!)

Yesterday, we spent the afternoon settling in - grocery shopping, unpacking, etc. Then, last night we went out for dinner and drinks since it was Kevin's last night in the UK. He left this morning, and now we're in the process of coming up with a plan for the day - I think we're going to check out the Hyde Park area. I'll write more soon...

The End of a Thing

"Better is the end of a thing than its beginning." - Ecclesiastes 7:8

Tomorrow morning, I leave the quiet streets of Cambridge for the bustle of London, the world of the academic for the world of the commercial...

So tonight, after our farewell dinner and a walk and a last drink with the crew, I spent some time wandering around the college and the city alone, taking some pictures, trying to process what exactly this three weeks in Cambridge has meant to me...


And so I sit, back to King's College, facing Trumpington street, thinking. During the day, this street is packed with tourists, but it's quiet now, or at least it seems that way at first. I pull my knees up to my chest and rest my head against the wall behind me, enjoying the coolness of the stone on my neck, and I notice the strains of violin music drifting from the red-awninged cafe across the street. There are voices too - the soothing whispers of hand-holding couples, the boisterous laughs of mini-skirt-clad teenage girls and the boys who are trying to impress them.

What is it that I have learned here? I ask myself. Why do I feel connected to this place? The answer comes slowly, in fragments. I have learned, I realize, that I am at home among academics, that on some level I fit in the university world. I've learned that maybe I could live in another country and be okay with it, even like it. I've been reminded that much of my joy in life comes from sharing it - all of it - with other people. And through it all, I've become more convinced, deep in my soul, that hope lies not in ideas or intelligence or people - but in Jesus.

And so, I realize, for all these reasons, Cambridge has been a good place for me, one which is certainly not home, and yet one - which on another level - very much is.

Final Week

I haven't posted much this week because the pressure of the paper deadline looming over all of us has reduced the number of "fun" activities we've been able to do. My essay is on Shakespeare's sonnets and how they are a form of tragicomedy, one in which the poet presents and never resolves two conflicted selves. My conclusion is that the sonnets are then on one level disatisfying because they never reach an intellectual truth and on another level successful becuase they acurately capture the speaker's emotional truth. Hopefully, when I meet with my professor from GMU today to go over the draft, she'll like it - and I'll just have to do some touching up before tomorrow's deadline.

Honestly though, I've enjoyed this week a lot too, even with its more academic focus. It's nice because everyone's busy thinking and writing. The last few nights the crew of us has gone to the computer lab - which, conveniently also is one of the few air conditioned places in Cambridge - to work for a few hours, and then afterwards, we'll stop at a pub for a drink and some conversation on the way home.

I know I've said it before, but I really do just love the relational nature of things here, how all aspects of life - studying, eating, socializing - are shared with the same group of people. It makes even the academic work more meaningful as it's done in a context of community, rather than one of isolation. Before coming here, I'd conceived of this summer as a sort of independent and perhaps lonely adventure, but ironically, it's become the most communal experience I've had in a long time.

Unexpected Adventure

Well, I said in my post this morning that I was going to write my sonnets paper this afternoon, but it didn't exactly turn out that way. On my way to the computer lab, I felt like I had dirt in my eye, which with hard contacts is a not too rare occurence. So I took my contacts out, thinking that'd make it better, but the feeling persisted. I tried eye drops, flushing my eye with water, cold compresses, and nothing helped.

So I walked to the shopping area and went into this place that said Optical and Dental. It was kind of like a Lens Crafters, and the guy there looked at my eye and said it might be a blister on the cornea or something. He said I needed to go to the hospital. At this point, I felt very alone and wanted to cry, but when I started to, I discovered that made the pain worse. So I decided to be brave instead :)

I went back to my room to get some stuff together before leaving for the bus station. All of my girlfriends were out, and I didn't know where our faculty supervisor's room was, so I knocked on my friend Kevin's door to make sure someone knew where I was going. He, very kindly, insisted on coming along with me, which was definitely a good thing. It made the whole experience more of an adventure and less scary and isolating.

Anyways, we took the bus to the hospital and found our way with some difficulty to the eye center. The nurse there took my name and address and, of all things, my religion - no insurance information though - and told us to wait. There were two people in front of me.

Two and a half hours and lots of bad magazines later (did you know the British tabloids think Christina Aguilera should cover the bruises on her legs?), I finally got to see the doctor. He was very kind. When he gave me some drops, I warned him that I'm really bad about drops, and he said, "Don't worry...I'm good at it." He told me about his visit to Georgetown and how he saw cockroaches there. Thankfully, by that time the pain had died down a bit and my main problem was blurry vision. He diagnosed the problem as a scratched cornea and gave me medication for it.

So the long and short of it is that I have to wear my glasses for at least the next week and put this antibiotic cream in my eyes four times a day...and take Advil for the pain. Fun, fun. But all in all, it turned out okay. And here's the best part. When the doctor was finished, I asked him where I should go to pay for the medication and the exam, and he said, "Oh, you don't have to pay. You can leave a donation if you want, but nothing's required." I couldn't believe it. I'm still not sure exactly how all of that works.

So even though I feel ugly in my glasses and didn't get much done on my sonnets paper and can't see clearly out of my right eye, I have lots to be thankful for - free treatment, kind Brits who helped me figure out what to do, Kevin's kindness in helping me through it, all the other friends and faculty who've been so concerned, and the wonderful cafeteria staff here who put together special dinner plates for us, even though we were an hour and a half late. Plus I have a good story to tell!

Birthday Abroad

People here have asked me if it's strange to celebrate my birthday away from home, but for me, it's almost normal. Many of my birthdays growing up were celebrated at the beach, and since sixteen, I've celebrated birthdays in Hong Kong, Colorado, upstate New York, and now...England.

All in all, it was a very fun day, especially because Heidi and I have the same birthday so we got to share in the fun together. I got up early and boarded a coach bus with Kellie, Kimberly, and Heidi for Stratford-upon-Avon. There, we visited Holy Trinity Church, the sight of Shakespeare's grave, and the house in which Shakespeare was born. Then we went to the Royal Shakespare Theatre to see a performance of Romeo and Juliet, which was an intruiging mix of Shakespeare meets Stomp meets West Side Story with some nice stage and lighting design thrown in.

We got back around 7 and went for a late dinner at 8:30 with a few other friends. Heidi and I were determined to have pizza - not stuffed meat and potatoes like we usually have in the dining hall :) - and we found this fun American-style place that even gave us birthday balloons. The girls had all gone together and gotten Heidi and I gift certificates for pedicures, which was super kind. Afterwards, we stopped at a pub for drinks and then came back and hung out in Kellie's room, talking until 2 a.m. It reminds me of undergrad in the way that I have gotten to know so much about these people in just 2 weeks!

This morning, I went to church again at Holy Trinity, and now I'm off to the University Center to work on my sonnets paper. It's due Thursday, so we're all feeling the pressure to buckle down and get things done.

Thank you all so much for your kind e-mails and e-cards. It meant a lot to be remembered on my birthday!

Shakespeare's Grave

Heidi and I with our birthday balloons

Will's House in Stratford

Tragedy, Comedy, and Theology

Me writing at Christ's College Fellows' Garden yesterday morning
Today marks the start of the second half of my time in Cambridge. After a day off yesterday in between terms, it was back to class today - this time Jane Austen II and Shakespeare's Late Tragicomedies (Cymbeline, Winter's Tale, The Tempest). Thankfully, today was a bit cooler than yesterday, which apparently was the hottest day EVER in Britain's history. I know you're all thinking I'm a whiner to even complain about 90 degrees when you've been hitting 100 and higher in the States, but remember, nothing's air-conditioned here because it's usually reasonably cool...and there are no fans anywhere either. I'm definitely wishing I'd brought more shorts and tank tops!

Anyways, on class days, we have a large group lecture after our morning class, and today's lecture was about Shakespeare's merging of tragedy and comedy in his late plays. It was interesting because the speaker presented Shakespeare's shift from his early strict tragedies to tragicomedy in theological terms, arguing that tragedy could only be written in a Calvinist context whereas tragicomedy represents the influence of Armenian thought on Elizabethans. He explained that tragicomic literature expresses what strict philosophy cannot - the simultaneous existence of free will and predestination, the unexplainable dance between them.

I'm not sure if such a brief summary of an hour-long lecture makes any sense, but I was very much struck by the idea, especially since I've always believed both predestination and free will (or at least the perception of it) to be somehow true and always been moved by the mystery therein. It's intriguing to think of Shakespeare's plays as reflective of his growing understanding of and appreciation for this dance.

Updates and Ponderings

Since my last post, I've had some pretty neat experiences. Last night, Heidi, Kellie, Kimberly, Kevin, and I went to see an outdoor production of Hamlet on the grounds of King's College. The five of us had seen Midsummer Night's Dream together on Friday night, and we'd noticed a bunch of other groups with elaborate picnic spreads. So we decided to give it a go this time, and it was so much fun. As you can see, we brought wine, bread, cheese, salads, fruit, and desserts, all of which were delicious. And the actor who played Hamlet was phenomenal!

Heidi, Kevin, Kellie, Kimberly and our dinner :)

Then, this morning, the same group of us ventured to Christ's College to spend some time in the Fellows' Garden, home of Milton's Mulberry Tree. The garden was still and beautiful, so after roaming around and taking pictures for a bit, we each found a spot to sit and read or write. I spent some time journaling and praying and just enjoying the beauty of the place. It was definitely the coolest spot I've been all day - I know there's been a heat wave in the States, but it's been VERY unseasonably warm here too...upper 80's, which for the Brits is unbearable!

Then, this afternoon, I visited the Round Church, which dates back to 1130 and enjoyed a fantastic exhibit on church history in Cambridge from Rome to today. It explained how the universities of Cambridge spun out of centers of monastic learning and explained how Cambridge students were influential in the Reformation. It also described the tension between science and faith, noting that neither Issac Newton nor the early founders of the famous Cavendish Laboratory considered this to be a problem.

Finally, I wandered back to Magdalene College, which I'd learned since my last visit was home to C.S. Lewis during his years in Cambridge. It's interesting to think as I visit all of these places dear to famous people - Byron's pool, Milton's garden, Lewis' college - about what it is that draws us to places like this, why we go to great lengths to see them. At first glance, it seems like some sort of a pilgrimage, a ground hallowed by the geniuses that have walked there. But the places themselves, though beautiful, are not necessarily any more amazing than places I've seen in Fairfax - secluded, natural, calm, but not particularly awe-inspiring. But perhaps that's part of the appeal - to see that famous people were inspired by places much like our own favorites, that they really are rather human after all.

International Pub Chat

It's hard to believe, but today marks the half-way point of my time in Cambridge. My first two classes finished today, so my Sonnets professor met with our class at a pub this afternoon. My friend Kimberly and I had a great time chatting with a woman from Germany, also a teacher. I learned a lot about the way education in Germany works, including that Germany is currently undergoing the process of removing year 13 from its secondary education system.

Even more interesting though, we got to talk with her about World War II and the Holocaust and how it is taught in German schools. She said that it is presented very much as Germany's fault and that she thinks German people still really struggle with a lot of guilt for it. She believes that it's made Germans as individuals and as a country much more humble and sensitive to prejudice and discrimination.

We also got to chat with Judith, a history scholar from the UK who is now studying literature, about the Gunpowder Plot and its role in British history and perhaps Shakespeare's consciousness. It's so fascinating to me to learn about these aspects of history and culture that are not emphasized in America, to realize that while we're learning about the Revolutionary War and the Civil War, students in other countries are learning about a whole host of other events. It definitely makes me realize how much there is to learn.

Weekend Photos

I thought I'd add a few pictures from the weekend! It's been very relaxing and fun - not at all studious :) But it's back to class tomorrow!

My fellow English nerds at the pub on Friday afternoon:

Heidi, Kelly, me, Kimberly, Tara


Me today at Lord Byron's pool...he apparently liked to swim here when he was studying at Cambridge. I thought it looked pretty gross!


A shot from the pub we were at last night.